all right.

yesterday night was the most worst dreadful night for me.

fuck it shit what is happening to me?

i don't even understand my stupid way of living and i begin to use vulgarities these few days.

yesterday i had a plan in my mind.

having to live in this house makes me feel just like an outsider except that i do not have that freedom to do what i like and what i want.

i really need an income with me currently.

i have dozens of late payment bills coming up to me together with my hospital bills and soon there will be my check up once again.

haix why is this challenges keeps on provoking me like hell and i just can't seemed to ignore it.

they say you have to tackle your own problems in order for you to kno your main weakness but how?

no one is supporting me now only for my wanna be 'step mum' who does not even gave birth to me and she is so concern for me?

if were to say that this world that i am living in is unfair then tell me what is fair?

no one is perfect in this world and i have my stupid friends and families telling me that i am very fortunte to stay with my granduncle and auntie.

what do you know?

yes it is fortunate if you were to see it with your bare eyes but it is not if you yourself cannot even do what you like to do.

okay fine i am a girl so i should know my basic courtesy and manners but i should be able to lead my own life too.

hey i am an independent girl who only knows what are survival meant to me ALONE.

things change the way i do not want it to be.

TIKUS is being fucking hack care of me and he only message or call me whenever he wants that fucking sexlife from me.

what does he takes me as?

a doll?

i hate it so much if he were to treat me the way as how the stupid ass are treating me.

i better be off staying in the prostitute brothel rather than a place called home cause untill todayi just cannot find a perfect place to be called my HOME

I hate the surrounding of mine

I hate the people who paster me

I hate the people who judge my life without knowing me

I hate the people who assume me for a SLUT

I hate those asshole who treated me like a SEXSLAVE

READ THIS:

I AM NOT YOUR SEX SLAVE YOU ASSHOLE DUMB DUMB....

i feel like crying now but i just do not understand why i cannot let my tears down?

now i am leaving my life in GOD hands because only him knows my desire.

I wanna be me again.

the old and original me.

Once i step my leg out of this house for sure i will never step into it.

NEVER AGAIN

***My path can only be right when i'm walking straight with full of confident in me***